Category: Grief / Healing
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Waiting For Our Rainbow
Throughout 2023, I have jumped head-first into doing multiple devotionals. Some include S.O.A.P with our church, reading about God and grief through a devotional book, and doing a Bible in 1-year podcast. I don’t share that I am doing multiple devotionals to tell anyone how “spiritual” I am or how “devoted” I am to God.…
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293
Today, my heart breaks all over again. If you don’t know, Archer’s life spanned 292 calendar days from the day he was born to the day he went to heaven. February 1st marks 293 days of him being gone. There is an overwhelming wave of sorrow that has come over me. The weight of this…
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Intentionally Me – January
Taking care of me feels like it’s been an adjustment. Since Archer passed, Theo and I have felt that we were pretty good at saying ‘no’ or ‘yes’ to things we felt we could or could not do. However, since slowing down around the holidays and thinking about 2023, it just feels so much harder…
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Did I Find My Purpose?
Wow, it feels like I have not written in so long, but it’s only been a week. Over the last week, I have just not felt myself, so writing has been so difficult. On Monday, I felt I had to push myself to go to Bo’s Heavenly Clubhouse. I didn’t want to drive the hour…
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My 30th Birthday
This week, I turned 30. I had always thought that life would be amazing by the time I was 30 and I would just be thriving. (Hint Hint: Going into 30 was hard). By 30, I had planned to be close to done having kids. I thought I would be raising an almost 2-year-old and…
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Nine
This is the last time I write about a month saying that my child lived longer than he’s been gone. Archer lived 292 days. February 1st will be Archer’s 293rd day of being gone. I’m just not ready… Archer Floyd – Mama misses you so much, Squishy. I cannot believe you have been gone so…
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2023 Theme
I have never been a fan of New Year’s resolutions or picking a theme for the year. Usually, this is because I have a hard time sticking to them. If I remember correctly, last year, I said I just wanted to be a better mom and love Archer to the fullest. When I look back,…
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Wonder & Awe of Christmas
For the first time in a few months, and maybe even since Archer passed, I look at pictures and smile. Of course, I still cry because it makes me miss him. The pictures of the “Most Wonderful Time of the Year” remind me that Christmas with Archer truly was wonderful and magical. When you have…
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Archer & the Cardboard Box
Archer loved to explore the world, as long as his hands weren’t getting dirty, of course! (For those who don’t know, Archer HATED to be dirty – hands, feet, or diaper, haha). We have a cat, Zeus, and we leave cardboard boxes here and there for him to play and rest in. It’s like his…