Category: Grief / Healing
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What If
I’m always wondering about the ‘What If.’ Specifically, asking myself, “What if Archer was here?” I want to know what he would look like—imagining his smile, which lit up the world. That smile with only two teeth (with two more coming in) would probably be half full of pearly whites. Would he still have his…
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First Halloween
Theo and I don’t go “all out” and celebrate Halloween, but we still like to hand out candy to the kids. This Halloween, our first without Archer, we struggled with everything. We didn’t want to hand out candy or even see kids in their costumes. Thankfully, we had plans. We headed down to Illinois to…
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Trick-or-Treat
As a child, I didn’t do much Trick-or-Treating, as our church usually had a production that day. I remember loving to pass out candy to the kids when we were home (before leaving for the production). One year this mom made a little boy a yellow lego costume out of a cardboard box and some…
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Etsy – What’s it got to do with GRIEF?
It is no secret that I have been struggling with losing Archer; however, the last few weeks have been the hardest. Part of that is because our plans have slowed down, and the holidays are not far away anymore. I have kept myself as busy as possible, even doing things alone. For example, I started…
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Memorial Service for Archer
Theo and I went to a memorial service that Archer’s hospice facility put on. It was at a funeral home, in this beautiful chapel. We were asked to bring a picture to place on a table to remember our loved one. It was weird that there were “older” people in every picture, and then there…
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Community 2.0
Three months ago, I wrote a blog called Community. (Check it out if you haven’t already). In this blog, I talked about the fantastic community that we have had throughout Archer’s life and how that community has continued to support us after his passing. Three months ago, I would have never imagined what my community looked…
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Camp Oak Leaf: Activity Four
The first day of Camp Oak Leaf was terrific but tiring. The weather was cold, and we were all emotional. We had met some great people, and Theo and I felt we had just touched the tip of the iceberg for healing. Before we got to camp, we received an email that we would be…
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I Was Robbed
I was robbed.Robbed of some of my most valuable possessions.I was robbed of my heart and future.It was all taken so quickly, and there is so much trauma from the process. Trying to find people who have also been robbed, like me, is tough.All robbed so differently, but the pain and trauma experienced so similar.Searching…
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Wave of Light
Thank you to everyone who lit a candle in memory of Archer on October 15, 2022. Theo and I went away to a retreat for those who have lost their children (0-2 years old). We sat around a bon fire, lit our candles, said our child’s name, and talked about them. The biggest fear a…
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My Little Pumpkin
Theo and I attended another grief workshop called My Little Pumpkin. I was very excited when I saw the post on Facebook about this workshop. We were told to bring our creativity and start thinking about how we could paint a pumpkin that would remind us of our child. Immediately, I thought to create a…