Category: Grief / Healing
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Happy 2nd Birthday, Archer!
I know it’s cheezy to say that one of the best days of my life was when Archer entered the world on June 26, 2021. As I reflect today, all 292 days with him were the best days of my life. I think I can speak for Theo and say he would agree with me. …
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Hey Archer – As more time passes, it doesn’t get easier. We have some good days and some rough days. June, mainly, has been tough knowing that we are less than two weeks from you being two years old. If I say so myself, we have a great theme for your birthday, and I cannot…
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I Get Knocked Down, But I Get Up Again
Some days we struggle more than others. Today is one of those days. I’m exhausted. I’m weary. I’m struggling. When will it be good news?! When will it be my turn?! Why couldn’t he have been healed?! It’s hard to find the light in this darkness. I think everyone knows the Little Engine that Could,…
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Remembered
Today is Memorial Day, and I reflect on those who served this country and those who lost their lives. I sit and think about their sacrifice and the absence their families must feel, especially on a day like today. To all who served, still serve, and to the families of those that lost a member…
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Mother’s Day 2023
Mother’s Day this year looked very different from last year. Last year, Theo and I were blessed with a trip to get away, as Archer had just passed about three weeks before. This year, we were in a ‘normal’ routine. I use normal very lightly because I no longer know what normal looks like. Some…
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It’s been one year and one month since Archer left this Earth. Today is Mother’s Day. What a whirlwind of emotions today has been. Archer Floyd – Mama misses you with all her heart. Nothing and no one can ever fill the hole that you left in my heart. Memories of you continue to flood…
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Letting It Out
As we approached Archer’s first angelversary, I started to go back through old photos and social media posts to see my handsome, missed boy. While I was doing so, something caught my eye immediately. Take a look at my post from December 2022, and see if you notice it: You probably saw it right away.…
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Waves & Tides
Before I had any real experience with grief, I always thought it was linear. The first days would be the hardest, and it would all get easier with time. Boy, I was highly wrong. It comes in waves. This week, I feel the low and high tides. I feel the waves crashing against me and…
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The Scar on my Heart
Lately, writing the words of my heart has been so hard. It’s not that I don’t have experiences, thoughts, or feelings that I can share. It was so “easy” to write early in my grief journey, and part of me thinks it is because I was so numb from the trauma I had experienced. If…
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Rose-Colored Glasses
Taking time away from the world to spend with family was much needed over Archer’s angelversary. However, the days since the 14th have felt emotional. I have been very up and down over the last few days. Over the last week or two, we have seen many pregnancy announcements, newborns, and littles turning one. Don’t…