Category: Grief / Healing
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1.7
I don’t know that I will ever stop counting the months of Archer being gone. Many people would try to forget the awful dates, but I find it impossible. It feels impossible not to remember the absence, which grows further. However, we try to keep the memories just as alive and strong. Last night, I…
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2023 October (Photo Gallery)
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. Fun fact about this month: In 1988, President Ronald Regan declared this month as one to recognize bereaved parents and to support families who have experienced such tremendous loss. Ronald Regan too lost a daughter in 1947, so I would like to think that he understood the…
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1.6 (Yes, I’m Late)
It’s a few days after October 14th, and I know I “missed” putting out this blog on the 14th of the month, as I usually do. However, this was intentional this month; let me tell you why. First, this was a milestone in our loss. As most of you know, Archer lived to be 9.5…
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1.5
Every month, I say the same thing: I miss Archer. For some reason, this month has been challenging, especially this last week. Yesterday was hard for both Theo and me. I texted him about mid-way through the day, with a heavy heart and weld-up eyes, about how I was so sad that Archer wasn’t here…
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Back-to-School Struggles
I have always loved back-to-school season. No matter my age or what grade I was going into, I remember how I could not wait for school to start. Learning is something I have enjoyed my entire life. After graduating, I still looked forward to back-to-school season. It was a pleasure to go on social media…
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1.4
After missing last month, I really felt the loss of Archer days leading up to the 14th of August. It wasn’t intentional or because I was upset that I missed last month, but the grief feels heavier this month. I have been looking down at my Samsung watch every day since the 11th, saying three…
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OOPS! I Missed It! (1.3)
Every 14th day of the month since Archer passed, I have written a blog about how I felt or written directly to him. This month, I missed it. The 14th came and went, and then about three days later, I realized I missed writing a blog. At first, I was a little disappointed and ‘sad’…
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Am I Loved?
I don’t know if this will come as a surprise to anyone, but I do believe in God. While I believe God is real, it hasn’t been easy since Archer’s passing. I have questioned, “why?” Archer was an innocent little boy, so why was he taken from me? I just don’t understand. I don’t get…
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July 4, 2023
The July 4th holiday is a hard one for me. This was Archer’s first holiday, and I was excited to celebrate with him. Every year my brother throws a little cookout/get-together for the 4th. When Archer was first born, we weren’t sure if we would go. He was only about eight days old, and we…
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Photo Gallery: Archer’s 2nd Heavenly Birthday
The theme for Archer’s birthday was Bluey. We watched Bluey all the time with Archer. On Sunday, June 25th, we celebrated Archer’s 2nd Heavenly Birthday with family and then that evening we had a bonfire/open house with our friends. I’ll be honest, I didn’t take many pictures of the evening, as I just relaxed and…