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1.9
Hey Archer – It’s no surprise that I am writing to you again this month. It’s been a hard day already. This weekend, we got this massive snowstorm. On social media, many families were taking their little ones out to go sledding, make snowmen, or make snow angels; as I looked outside at the snow,…
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The Holidays
It’s been a tough few weeks, but the holidays are always hard when you miss someone you love and built part of your life around. Christmas without Archer was hard. There were a lot of little breakdowns throughout the holidays. My family goes to the Wild Lights at the Zoo every year since Archer was…
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Oh, Christmas Tree
We didn’t have much time with Archer, but Christmas was one of his favorite life experiences. He absolutely loved all the lights, the tree, the wrapping paper, and just exploring this holiday season. In 2022, Theo and I only had a little Christmas spirit. We know the reason for the season (Jesus), which kept us…
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1.8
Twenty months without our sweet boy; it feels like a new ‘milestone’ being out of the teens and into the twenties. Last night, I had a dream and saw our little guy. He was happy and healthy. He was in his cute little grey sweat suit, and we were carrying him around some type of…
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Re-learning To be A Mom
I remember what it was like being Archer’s mom. However, when we lost Archer, I felt I became an “honorary mom.” I gave myself this title because I haven’t been parenting a living child, but I know I am still a mom. As we prepare for Stryder, I finally feel I am moving back into…
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Thanksgiving
There are longer lapses of time since my blogging… It’s not because I don’t have the emotions, thoughts, or words to say. I genuinely try to process my feelings, thoughts, and words. I’ve written a few blogs that never made it to the site, as I didn’t feel the words were “right.” The holiday season…
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1.7
I don’t know that I will ever stop counting the months of Archer being gone. Many people would try to forget the awful dates, but I find it impossible. It feels impossible not to remember the absence, which grows further. However, we try to keep the memories just as alive and strong. Last night, I…
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2023 October (Photo Gallery)
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. Fun fact about this month: In 1988, President Ronald Regan declared this month as one to recognize bereaved parents and to support families who have experienced such tremendous loss. Ronald Regan too lost a daughter in 1947, so I would like to think that he understood the…
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1.6 (Yes, I’m Late)
It’s a few days after October 14th, and I know I “missed” putting out this blog on the 14th of the month, as I usually do. However, this was intentional this month; let me tell you why. First, this was a milestone in our loss. As most of you know, Archer lived to be 9.5…
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IVF Update: Transfer to Today
We finally got on the IVF calendar in mid-June to start the transfer process. Part of this process is going in for a pre-appointment, where they check the uterine lining to ensure it looks appropriate for where you should be in the cycle. I was so excited about this appointment, if everything went well, we…
After Archer
"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard."- Winnie the Pooh