It’s been a few months since I have written or posted anything. We’ve had some of the most challenging and exciting things happen in the last few months, and I’m trying to take it all in. (I plan to write a ‘catch up’ blog about the previous few months.)

However, today, I’m feeling low. It may be the lowest I have felt in quite some time.

Every day, I get photo memories on my phone, but today just hit differently. There Archer was, from being 4 days old to a picture of his final day… My heart couldn’t handle how much I miss him today.

Not all days are this hard, but grief goes in waves. I’m genuinely convinced these random low days will never go away. There will always be times when I am so overwhelmed by grief that I cry.

We just passed Archer’s 4th birthday and are approaching the first holiday we got to celebrate with him. Maybe that is the reason my grief feels heavier than usual.

Crying doesn’t mean I miss Archer more than usual; in my mind, it means that I’m just not as strong today and need to cry over the one who is missing.

My love hasn’t changed for you;
I miss you all the same.
Grief doesn’t ever go away.
I’ll love and miss you every day.