Do you know what is hard to deal with?
Wanting to be a mom again.
Want to know what is harder to deal with?
Seeing your spouse not be a parent when they are designed to be one.

Anyone who knows Theo is probably well aware of how good of a dad he was to Archer. Theo didn’t take the typical role of ‘dad,’ but he was a lover, caretaker, and best friend to our little boy. Theo loved Archer with all of his heart, and he still does. Theo would have and did do absolutely anything he needed to with Archer.
It’s always said, you fall more in love with your spouse when you see them become a parent. And it’s true. I fell harder for Theo when I saw him take care of Archer.

Theo didn’t just love being Archer’s dad, but he was meant to be a dad. He is the most fantastic man not only to Archer, but Theo lights up with children. He will play with them like no other, he would tie shoes, help get them dressed, and treat them with as much love as if they were his own.

The reality is…they are not. Theo doesn’t have a child on earth, and he was meant to. I wish you all could see him with kids. HE IS THE BEST!

Finding out that IVF can take as long as it does is crushing. Not because I want to be a mom, again, so badly, but because the man I love that is meant to be a dad can’t be one as soon as I hoped.