Theo and I have a house that has a smaller kitchen and no real dining room space. We do have a longer rectangular living room, though. We have been using the full-living room space to have our couches and TV for the last few years. We always said that when we have a family, we will split the living room in half and use one half for a living room space and the other half for a dining room.
Growing up, we both had families that had dinner around the table. We had conversations with our families about life, God, and hard discussions. We wanted that for our future family.
Why am I telling you about this? Great question, even though I know you didn’t truly ask.
When we found out we were pregnant with Archer, Theo drew up our living room in CAD, so we could visually see what could actually fit in the space. Theo and I started perusing Facebook Marketplace and stores for smaller furniture that could work and create these two spaces in one room. We were in no rush.
When Archer was in the hospital, we started to look harder for furniture. We BELIEVED he was coming home, and we would get those same memories around the table with him…
This last week, Theo and I were finally blessed to be able to purchase the furniture. My family came over and helped us move the old furniture out, rearrange our space, and bring in the new pieces. We left Archer’s toy box and stander in the space, as it still brings me joy seeing his things around our house. I broke down when we reached the end of putting things in place. I realized:
Archer didn’t make it this, and we were NEVER going to get those memories with him.
Theo and I are working with doctors to have a family again. One day when we are blessed with children, again, I will share memories of Archer around our table.
